Showing posts with label Quetzal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Quetzal. Show all posts

The Queen and I - resting in peace - Sue Townsend and the Queen in conversation

September 8, 2022 - a normal day.

I am sitting at my desk. Merlin arrived, ready to help me dismantle the display for the Queen and I, art & craft project. Survivors of childhood sexual abuse at Quetzal created the display to celebrate the Queen's Jubilee, honoured our late patron Sue Townsend and showcased their talents.

As we dismantled the display, we discussed the possibility of reusing the artworks when the Queen will pass. Little did we know that it would be on the same day.

For Merlin, the 8th of September is a special day full of celebration with the birth of the Virgin Mary and in her hometown back in India, they also had a full day of celebration. As she shared with me the meaning of the day, I thought, yes it is a special day.

I returned home under the heavy thunderstorms, entered home, took off my shoes, and walked up the stairs to greet my husband. He announced that the Queen passed. I could not help it. I shed a tear for her family. 

Later, I wondered what conversation the Queen and Sue Townsend will have looking from heaven upon us watching the various 'isms' at war.

Q: It was all a dream

S: Oh yes, that's was. You had a good one, didn't you?

Q: it all depends on which trees you are sitting on...

S: Yes, some of your people put trees in the shade, can't forget hell close, what a doomed place to sit on a tree

Q: I did ask if they could move them, but even when the Queen asks...

S: they don't always listen, do they?

Q: Well, they are not as deaf as one may think.

S: Thick, dare I say?

Q: they can eventually be smooth over

S: With a lot of asking

Q: Yes, wit, patience and intelligence

S: Is Charles III up to the tasks?

Q: yes, as well as all of my subjects

S: Let's pray that they keep on dreaming and restrain themselves from turning their present into a nightmare

Q: may god save them all...




Jump In

 "You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water" 

Here are the beautiful words written by Rabindranath Tagore, painter, poet, composer, playwright, philosopher and social reformer.

I read them in the preface written by Albert Chaitram Persaud, Founder CAREIF for the report "Improving the Mental Health of South Asian Populations in the United Kingdom" written by Gnanapragasam S.N. and Menon K.V. (2021) on behalf of CAREIF and Ethnic Inclusion Foundation.

One of the key recommendations in the report is to ''provide a culturally competent workforce with appropriate cultural competency training so that care provided appreciates cultural (religious/spiritual/faith), historical and gendered influences of South Asians''.

While further training is always welcomed, it should not stop organisations to jump right in engaging with communities from various ethnicities, cultures and backgrounds. As humans, we have the innate ability to create connections with others regardless of their characteristics. 

When starting Quetzal Breaking the Silence Initiative, a project that aims to raise awareness about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse and the value of counselling in Leicester South Asian Communities, I had to go through a process of decolonisation using the ABCD framework and develop critical thinking to recognise as much as anyone else that I am part of the South Asian Community as a representant of an institution. From there and by reiterating our main goal which is to support the mental health of our beneficiaries, we were able to collaborate and develop an initiative. In 2019, we had 11 referrals from South Asian Female Survivors - In 2021, we had 51. 

Yes, I had to learn on the go about cultural differences. It was a fantastic opportunity to appreciate another person culture and to share it with people who probably never engaged with South Asian communities in Leicester before. We always brought back our focus to a shared vision where female survivors of childhood sexual abuse and their families would know about our support. It is about bringing people together and reminding them that we have these innate abilities to connect with one another with the heart.

So stop, staring at the water, jump in, create a bridge between yourself and others


Zinthiying Quetzal

For the first time in many years, I considered returning to the corporate sector so I can gather all the learnng that I ne

Publishing Publishing Publishing

What happened this week?

I published many resources online for people to pick upon and disseminate. 

Our Quetzal Stories of Change event and the list of artists and organisations who will display at the event is on Quetzal Website. On Monday I will send the invitations to all and disseminate across the stratosphere. I also shared the results of our community discussion on what we can do to raise awareness in BAME communities about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse.
I had a great meeting with the team if Let's talk about sexual violence about creating a bigger impacts with their exhibition both in Leicester and Liverpool by paying to a pot of fundings and determining some key activities. Watch this space!
I had a great conversation with a funder about the questions to ask oneself when applying fundings. To give you a bit of a back story, I applied for some funding to tour the exhibition in Leicestershire. We received only part of the funding to support with our counselling activities.the main reasons were that sheer amount of applicants forcing the funders to ask themselves which activities offered by the applicants support the most vulnerable people. In our application, cousnelling was the activity supporting the most vulnerable whilst the exhibition was targeting the general public which may not be vulnerable as such. It was such a great feedback which will help me moving forward in developing better applications. 
Other things, I worked on at Quetzal is our upcoming litter picking event organised by one of our volunteer community connectors beginning of October. I am so looking forward to this. Especially as I am planning one event like it in Braunstone Frith. Let me know if you would like to be involved?

In the Leicester Fixers world, I am posting everyday on our page and engaging in conversation about Leicester Fixers development. One discussion is about how can we make Leicester Fixers more accessible to women and children? The other is if we were to write a book about repair to generate more funds -  who would be the main audience? I have to think more about that.

Other things are slowly developing in the background and I can't wait to share with you more when the time comes. We are with partners claiming more space to create change, we are taking that space and will expand. That is something to look out for!!

Looking forward to hearing how things on your side and how we can collaborate some more. All the best. Have a great weekend!

Mentoring is critical for leadership development

Mentoring is critical for leadership development. This week I was reminded of the latter after meeting with my mentor. She has been supporting me for the last 3-4 months in defining further ehat type of leader I want to be and how I want to relate to people around me.

It supports with confidence, greater trust in your decision and give a great sounding board when wondering how to navigate a specific issue. They share experience and expertise to guide us in our next steps towards greatness.

My mentor suggested that I shall go through a small exercise called the Golden Circle introduced by Simon Sinek to define my why and revisited from time to time. She also said that it is a great exercise to do with a team to ensure vision and purpose are aligned. It became clear to both of us that I had many projects and I needed to think more deeply about my purpose and it will help me to better redefine my relationships with others.

Do you have a mentor?
How do you find it?
Have you use Simon Sinek Golden Circle. If you did not. Here is a small video for you to watch. how leaders inspire action by Simon Sinek on Ted

Quetzal

Quetzal is a charity supporting female survivors of childhood sexual abuse aged 16 and above living in Leicester, Leicestershire and Rutland

More about the project

Marlefeed Projects at Quetzal
2019
  • Breaking the Silence Initiative 2019-2022
  • Service Improvement
    • Quetzal Heartbeat
2020
  • Event production
    • Community Awareness-Raising Session
  • Programme
    • Breaking The Silence Initiative
  • Resource design and development
    • Self-Help Guide
    • Quetzal Website
  • Fundraising Campaigns
    • Crush the Hush Covid-19 Edition
  • Communication Campaign
    • Let's Talk About Sexual Violence Online Exhibition Launch
    • White Ribbon 2020
  • Service Improvement
    • Lamplight
2021
  • Event Production
    • Bhensexplaining Kitty Party
    • Breaking the Silence Key Learning Webinar
    • Community discussion about what we can do better to support South Asian Female Survivors
    • Ways To Wellbeing 9 session online programme
  • Fundraising Campaign
    • Crush The Hush with A Brush
    • London Landmarks Marathon 2022
  • Video Production
    • Stories of Change Video
  • Programmes
    • Breaking the Silence Initiative 2019-2022
  • Service Improvement
    • Lamplight Implementation
    • Quetzal Heartbeat 2

2022
  • Group Workshop
    • Queen and I art project
    • NCS Crush the Hush with a Brush - Mural at Quetzal
    • Fusion Event
  • Event Production
    • Quetzal Stories of Change Exhibition
    • Alive & Kicking Female in Coalville
    • Queen and I Art Display & Exhibition
    • Breaking the Silence Evaluation Webinar
  • Video Production
    • New Service Videos
  • Programmes
    • Breaking the Silence Initiative 2019-2022
    • Leicestershire Outreach
    • We will not be Silent
    • Crush the Hush 16-24-year-old programme
  • Fundraising Campaigns
    • London Landmarks Half-Marathon
    • Pay it Forward
  • London Landmarks Marathon 2022
  • Service Improvement
    • Translate
    • Improving Access to Psychotherapy for female survivors of childhood sexual abuse


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About sending emails on Monday

I was asked to provide an update about My Monday Email Run

It is now my third week sending only emails on Monday. It remains very rewarding, though it is long stretch of work.

Today, I started replying to emails at 6am this morning. It is now 9pm and I am on the last stretch dealing with my personal emails. Why did it take me all that long? Well today, I changed slightly my schedule. I had a meeting with a coach to support Leicester Fixers - Durgha from Flow Finder (a bit about this in this Last Update). It meant that 3hours of my time were dedicated to travelling, chatting, planning and more. 

Writing emails on Mondays also include writing articles, newsletters as well as updating websites including Quetzal and Marlefeed plus doing a bit of design work. It is required since I want to update my teams about upcoming events and resources to share. I am working towards writing most of the content to send on Monday - On Thursday instead so I can reduce the workload for Monday.

Once my Monday run is done. I have way more time to dedicate to writing, meeting with people and planning and I am well grateful for this. 

During the week, I check my emails once a day between 12-1pm. If there is anything urgent, I reply straight away otherwise I snooze an email until the following week. If I have a meeting or discussion and I am invited to send an email to someone and it is not urgent, I use my asana and write that I need to send an email on Monday to so and so.

So this it, my update about My Monday Email Run.

I hope you find it useful



Marlene Reid Centre with Quetzal

Quetzal Stories of Change Exhibition opens on the 18th September 2021. I am well looking forward to pulling it all together. One of my goals is to tour all or part of the exhibition in various venues in and out of Leicester.  In this process, I identified some funding to support the tour as well as venues that could host the exhibition. This week on Wednesday in particular, I had a field trip and visited the Marlene Reid Centre, a long standing community centre in Coalville. On the Wednesday, they host a food market with a cooking station, a cafĂ©, they also sell clothes uniform. They invited me to fill a bag of veg for £1, browse the charity and their furniture shop and even snacks on some lovely Turkish food. Stories were shared with me about how women in the area used the centres and how significant it is to educate about trauma, sexual and domestic violence. They had in the past training with Women's Aid s uprooting female survivors on their journey. Anywoo, we agreed on the space in the main entrance to host the exhibition. I returned home, satisfied. I tied up further lose ends for the tour and arrange few more meetings with the University of Leicester as well as North West Community Safety Partnership which are planning an exhibition in November. We will also be looking at having few pieces there too.

What else at Quetzal
The London Landmarks half-marathon is happening this Sunday. M and I have been discussing running it for the next edition.. Are you to follow.
The NCS team did not pick us this week, still we shared a video of our volunteers with them.
We submitted our quarterly report to the our Leicestershire Clinical Commissioning Group. 
I am considering completing afundraising qualification and here come the question is it better to complete the qualification from the FSI or the Chartered Institute of fundraising? If you've got an answer for that please tell me!


Leicester Stories: What conversations and discussions did you have with people living and working in Leicester?

Dr Rob Watson interviewed me as part of Leicester Stories series #BuildBackBetter in July 2021. Prior to the interview, he sent me few questions for me to prepare the interview and start thinking about what it means to Build Back Better post-pandemic. In the following post, I answer one of the questions augmented after reflecting upon the interview

R: I’d like to know what conversations and discussions people living and working in Leicester had during the lockdown, especially when these conversations started to focus on the idea of Building Back Better?

Through the lockdown, my discussion were upon the tools available to people to support their mental health and connections with others. In a trauma-informed programme, the first steps are stabilisation and regulation. In other words, if someone is in a state of shock, the first step is to ground them and help them manage their emotions. In our community, we experienced first hand what it is to be in a state of shock during the pandemic having experienced a health scare. Thankfully, we had access to alternative healing practices as well therapeutic and clinical support through this experience. We did everything in my power to navigate trauma and grow from it. This is not true for the everyone during the pandemic. At Quetzal, we did our best by providing counselling support remotely to female survivors. Many could not access it as they did not have the privacy within their home to receive the support they so much need it. 

During the lockdown, I also had long conversation with Kajal Nisha Patel about what is to build trauma-informed communities, what are the tools, skills and abilities one need to acquire and more. Through the discussion, we eventually built a project called - Ways to Wellbeing - a 9 online session programme - to equip communities with the tools to take care of their wellbeing which we delivered in May 2021. 

Another important conversation during the lockdown was how do we pass information when the access to the most low tech technology is limited. How do I create connections when I cannot visit people and speak to them directly. My uncle Emile Biti Abi fascinated by the Malian Empire told me that if we wanted to get information to reach Rome, we could just by using word of mouth. Sharing information with others is the most noble and caring things one can give to others, we do not need need high technology for this. Thankfully, community radios, social media and the telephone were accessible and we made the most of it.


Readjusting priorities - Week update

A good cold helps readjusting priorities. Your mind is such in a state of confusion that they are only few things that you can possibly hold onto to get some sense of grounding. Did I sleep this week more than ever and somewhat been more productive than ever. How just changing the way I deal with my emails.

My experiment dealing with all my emails on Monday is paying off. This week I was able to start writing an important piece of work that I have been postponing for ages and continuing some home transformation projects. I have way more time than ever before by choosing not to interrupt myself with emails during the week. I feel that I have more control over my work and this feels great. The extra time did make me feel at loss at some level and I am currently readjusting my priorities and bringing some new things in.

At Quetzal
I have been writing a funding application to tour Quetzal Stories of Change for people across Leicestershire to learn more about sexual violence. I will visit some of the venues next week which express interest for the exhjbition. I am well looking forward to that. I did some analysis of Quetzal last quarter, we increased by 11% the number of referrals and will be looking to apply to more funding. Finally I listened to 8 groups of teens presenting their project ideas for NCS, from sensory gardens, pencil cases to podcasts and story book, the group of young people had such great enthusiasm and focus wanting to do things well. It was truly enjoyable.

At Eugenie Bitty Arts
The whole team is creating more space for change, decluttering and clarifying priorities and intentions. We are getting there.

At Leicester Fixers
we went to woodgate computer this week for some data recovery, got some chair reupholstered and finally got a necklace fixed. Well pleased with this. We are also moving forward recovering some fundings to restart some activities. Hopefully soon we will be able to restart some activities.

This is my week update. Hope you had a good week too and planning a great weekend. I hope we will be able to connect again soon x

Leicester Stories - #BuildBackBetter - Part 1

Dr Rob Watson interviewed me as part of Leicester Stories serie #BuildBackBetter in July 2021. Prior to the interview, he sent me few questions for me to prepare the interview and start thinking about what it means to Build Back Better post-pandemic. In the following post, I will take time to answer the questions I was sent and augment my response with some of the reflections I had through the interview.

R: I’d like to find out what we are still learning from the experience of the lockdown, particularly here in Leicester?

M: At Quetzal, the lockdown taught us and invited us to reflect on the following:

  • What does it take to be a community that is not defined by a set location?
  • What can we do to mobilise our partners, volunteers and collaborators from remote location?
  • What does it takes to disseminate information and make it accessible to people who may not have access to the online world?
  • What other type of event can we develop that keep ourselves and other safe?
  • What special provision do we need to make to support better female survivors?
I learnt and appreciate crisis and disaster as a great opportunity to reach new level of consciousness providing new solutions to existing problems. I also appreciated how important and significant it is to take care of our mental health and how media is key to connect us with one another especially when the most low tech technology i.e. word of mouth and events are no longer readily accessible.

leicester stories

 


  1. I’d like to find out what we are still learning from the experience of the lockdown, particularly here in Leicester?

From Quetzal perspective, the lockdown taught us what it takes to be a community that is not defined by a set location, what can we do to mobilise our partners, volunteers and collaborators from remote location, what it takes to disseminate information and make it accessible to people who may not have access, what other type of event can we develop that keep ourselves and other safe, what special provision do we need to make to support better some female survivors, that crisis are great opportunity to reach greater level of consciousness and how important is to cre about our mental health, then that media are so important social mnedia local media to share informatiom between people

  1. I’d like to know what conversations and discussions people living and working in Leicester had during the lockdown, especially when these conversations started to focus on the idea of Building Back Better?

When the idea of building back Britain better came out, when was that? March 2021, April 2021, my main focus was what tools can we provide to people to support their mental health. Through a trauma informed programme the first steps are stabilisation and regulation if people are in state of shock we need to support them. During the pandemic many people were not equipped with the skills and ability. My other main concern was how do I pass information when the most low tech technology are not accessible or that people are not using Hugh tech technology anymore, how do I create connection when I cannot go physically to different places. My uncle emile viti abi is a writer with a fascination for Malian African empire and he was telling me that if we wanted an information to reach roma just through word of mouth, it will reach it. How do I tell people that we can support them in their journey towards recovery, how do I deal with gatekeepers, individuals who keep their communities shielded.


During the lockdown, my main focus was what can I do to raise awareness about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse in outh Asian communities by not actually being able to be in their physcial location and not even being able to access them directly, the question what can we do to build better community came to mind, it is about connections with people and bhow we engage with them, it is about what w give them, it was also about creating beter stories, coming from them directly, directly from peoplel, the other element it was about care and mental health and giving people the tools to be take care of their mental health better, it iwa also about raising awareness abotu the value of cousnelling and tell family to give privacy people.


  1. What does Build Back Better mean in practice for people living and working in a highly multi-cultural, multi-ethnic, multi-racial city?

In practice, it is about identifying people gift talents resources and competences and mobilising them where is needed the most. It is about co-crearion of experience that makes United. It is about also identifying people interest that goes beyond their ethnicity.


I think it is identifying people all as having a gift, a resources, a taleknt ebyond their ethnicity and to treat peopel the way we would like to be treated. South Asian communities what does that mean, asset baased community.

for me is about your strength and expressing the best expression of yourself, your interet, your vising and co-creating with ohers experiences that make us feel united.

  1. Is Build Back Better just a slogan, or is there some structure and weight behind it?

Yes, Yes, Yes 
 it does infer some form of duality between better or worse, it is also indicate that something has been created and then eventually brought down when the community does not feel it works not more. Who is qualified to build, it highlight some type of expertise. it i alo a question a criteria that we can use to gauge something we've created, there is some weight behind it inviting us to wonder whether what we did is good or not.Building Back Better (BBB) is a strategy aimed at reducing the risk to the people of nations and communities in the wake of future disasters and shocks.[1] The BBB approach integrates disaster risk reduction measures into the restoration of physical infrastructure, social systems and shelter, and the revitalization of livelihoods, economies and the environment.[2]

BBB was first officially described in the United Nations' Sendai Framework for Disaster Risk Reduction document, which was agreed on at the Third UN World Conference on Disaster Risk Reduction held on March 14–18, 2015, in Sendai, Japan. It was adopted by UN member states as one of four priorities in the Sendai Framework for disaster recovery, risk reduction and sustainable development.[3] The UN General Assembly adopted this document on June 3, 2015.

For me what is most important is to find balance through greater self-awareness and social awareness. Finding a better balance between our purpose by asking ourselves why we exist and our mission which is what we do. my purpose or the why i exist is to give a different perspective to you on the way I see the world and create with you experiences that unite us, my mission is to create more trauma-informed and sustainable communities in Leicester, am I building something or am I co-creating experiences, some exchange with other people.. why would I want to create more balance between my purpose and my mission so I can give space to other to also expres their best expression and together we can create new experience. Building Back Better there is definitely this element of duality, then there is the weight put on those who are perceive are doing best, the expert and actually when reading the report is what they emphasis upon boosting the industry productivity by inviting the best.

Quetzal raison d'etre is to amplify the voice of survivors and what they do is to supprot them is their journey towards recovery. 

Building back also indicate this idea that once built the job is done, when actually it is a never ending project, what is most important for me is to transcend what we've learnt prior to the pandemic, during the pandemic even now, transcend the community that were too static, and develop new connections.  shall we say intead destroy better. why do we need disaster to build better, shall we not dismantle on the daily basis what we know and give rise to something new. the disaster we've experience gave rise to great things bringing at the centre of the conversation the issue of mental health and domestic violence, forcing us to really pay attention to the way we behave
  1. If there is a better term, what is it? it is a great term to create some type of discussion - is there a better term to describe what we are doing. For me it is.Taking over the world - Transcending ones world remains the top for me as it is changing worldviews and there is also this elements of learning because ultimately who can claim that the world is or can be taken over, as you even try to take upon one world, you discover and learn there is milliuons more. I give you an example, when I was task at Quetzal to raise awareness in South Asian communities about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse, trying to take over one world, I was mesmerised by all that I discovered. the proces took over my worldviews and perspective and for this I am grateful

  2. Change is at the centre of the Building Back Better ethos, but what kind of change are we talking about?

Isn't it that term came through the UN as a strategy to  reduce the risk to the people of nations and communities in the wake of future disasters and shocks. Isnt it in their report they emphasis on creating a net carbon zero economy, creating more green jobs, boosting the economy, investing in infrastructure skills and innovation. Not sure they changed much from their previous agenda to be perfectly honest. At Quetzal, the main change was to continue our support to female survivors using digital infrastructure so that they have the tools, the space to expres their emotions and feeling and better deal with the impacts of disasters and schock. for me, to know that everyone of us have greater consciousness, understand better how the mind works, how their emotions afffecttheir physiology and also their relationships with others is so significantbecause in the face of disasters, they have the tool to deal with it all. and as a community to have people who are skilled counsellors we also indigeneous practices such as yoga alternative practices such as reflexology and more, all those tools are there to support the mind to cope with dissonant externalities. with a better mind, we can better co-create with other experiences that bring joy, good health. if we are not good in our mind, how can we possibly have good relationships with others. i guess mabe what we building back better is our brain, talking abou neuropklasticity and creating new connections between our experiences and our feelings
  1. What is the idea of change associated with Building Back Better based on?

Infrastructure
  1. Has this been a practical discussion, or is it just an opportunity for lots more talk? I believe any exchange are practical discussion as long a you are truly ready to take the information in. if you are too full with worries, your brain become like a waterlog ponge, but if otherwise, when i listen to people I am alway ready to jump on the opportunity to create something with them. For me it helps to identify where my focus is and it is signpost people who may have a waterlog brain towards services who helped them deal with the new changes coming through.

  2. Are there things that have been adopted and put into practice that point in the direction of practical changes we can make?


At which level? 
  1. What have been the reactions to those practices, and are the changes making real and lasting differences?

  2. Is there support from colleagues and partners that encourage and enhance these changes? Has anything proven intransigent and too difficult to change? What’s turned out to be the most adaptable things to change?

  3. Reflection and examination based on hindsight are necessary and essential things for us to do, especially if we are to learn the lessons of the pandemic.

  4. I’m keen to find out what improvements have been brought about, either intentionally or unintentionally, to the way we do things?

  5. Many, perhaps naively, expected change to come at a galloping pace, but that’s not how change feels in practice. Change is usually drawn-out and seems slow. Yet when we look back, we realise how much is different given the time that has past, or how far we have travelled.

  6. I think it’s essential to explore the positive dynamics of social change, particularly those that can be held as good examples for others to follow in the future.

  7. As we start to make decisions, draw-up new policies, and redirect resources, the essential question I have in mind, is how will Building Back Better affect us in our everyday lives, and will we see the results of in our neighbourhoods and communities?

When we chat I’ll try to focus on what your experience has been of doing this, as direct experience is much easier to elaborate and consider.

More there is always more - Week update

This week many changes occurred

First, I returned to Marle's Feed for updates and writing. Last week, I let go of Instagram to update on my weekly progress to recentralise my thoughts on my main blog. I started this blog back in 2012. There are probably more than 400 entries dealing with projects such as Positive Money and the Money workshop, Footpaths Leicester, The Green Festival of Making and Mending as well as Leicester Fixers, plus plethora of other writings. I did not write much about the Breaking the Silence Initiative at Quetzal. Though I intend to update the blog with past entries. 

The return was motivated by conversations with my uncle, Emile Biti Abi, author and thinker, recently published author Joyce Henry and my dear friend and artist Kajal Nisha Patel from Lightseekers. I thought let's consolidate and integrate all my writings on one central platforms.

The second important change is dealing with all my emails and online communication with collaborators on the Monday. The move was inspired by re-skimming through Tim Ferris 4-hour Work Week.  The move allowed me to do more focused and productive work laying foundation for new upcoming projects. 

More changes happened at many other levels, letting go of what it was in order to give space to what's new.

Below, I present some of what happened this week with some of my projects

This week at Quetzal

I had a productive conversation with Family Action about their project raising awareness about childhood sexual abuse in South Asian Communities. We both shared our challenges in term of engaging with communities where the stigma associated with sexual abuse is strife and where community leaders are too reluctant to open their doors. I look forward to support as best as I can their project in raising awareness in Leicester South Asian Community.

I went with a volunteer to visit a property by Rushey Field Park to ask if it was possible to paint on their property for a mural project with students. We had the most amazing conversation with the property owner. He did not agree with the idea of painting on a wall. He considered the original brick as having so much beauty and character. He asked me  ''Would you let anyone paint on your house?'. I smiled uncomfortable. My gut said ''Hell no''. He said to me so ''if you cannot do it on your own home, how this could be a good idea to paint on someone else house. if tag comes on this wall, he will most probably irritate someone eventually and get tagged on''. He said ''if you want to do a mural, do it in side a building for people to see and then discuss. this makes more sense''. He suggested other places in Leicester to paint on. He went on and said that is selling his home and if I find a buyer then I can paint on the house.
The discussion was rich and full of insights on the need to do some intergenerational work to bring the young with the old, the need of worshipping mothers for all the hard work they do in their community and so much more. 

As I walked in Leicester, I started to look at the walls and the shop front in a new eye an thought that we could instead of painting on a wall instead adorn a shop front. It will make more sense to do so. There is this shop next to Quetzal that I am thinking would be great to start with.

I also got interviewed by Rob Watson as part of Leicester Stories Podcast on Building Back Together. It was a great opportunity to think in more details about the process of transforming the gift of a story into various formats of dissemination. Every time, I go through this process I feel closer to my father and his work as a storyteller and theatre director. I miss him dearly.

This week at Eugenie Bitty Arts

Ongoing discussion with the team are occurring about our next exhibition in May 2022. I am also fostering relationship with collaborators in the UK to organise a trip to France for the main exhibition next year. I am also in seriously looking for a mentor to support me in this journey, I hope to find her or him soon. Visit the website and susbscribe to a newsletter for receiving in your mailbox the invitation or any other news

This week at Lightseekers

Our review of the Ways to Wellbeing project continue with this week costing appropriately our labour. I am so pleased knowing that Kajal Nisha Patel is writing extensively about the project in an academic format and I look forward to read about her reflection further in light of the literature in Museum and Cultural Studies.

More, there is always more...

So here it is for this week, a quick updates of some what happened. I pleased with all the work we are putting through to support changes

Social Media

If you’d like to follow my work online here’s where you can find me:


Marle on Twitter


You can follow me @DrMarle_Di where I post mainly about Quetzal.


Marle on Instagram

On my Instagram, @Drmarle.di

Marle on Youtube

Few videos of projects can be found here

Decentered Media Podcast 081 - Dr Marie Lefebvre and Community Solutions to Break the Silence about Childhood Sexual Abuse


Excerpt: Dr Marie Lefebvre from Quetzal on the Decentered Media Podcast discussed with John Coster and Dr Rob Watson Community Solutions for breaking the silence about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse.

Click here to listen the podcast 


Together, on the podcast, we explored how through creative storytelling, each one of us in our own capacity can help in breaking the silence about childhood sexual abuse and empower people to eventually find their voice and contribute to our community and society.
With the extended lockdown happening in Leicester, it is primordial than each of us find ways to communicate valuable information to people that will support their mental and physical health, to empower each one of us with strength to voice our needs and concerns.
At Quetzal, we deliver counselling services to support women in breaking the bars and psychological cages of the trauma of childhood sexual abuse. A part of my job at Quetzal is to raise further awareness about the trauma of childhood sexual abuse and the value of counselling in South Asian communities in Leicester City using a community-based approach through the Breaking the Silence Initiative.
I am hoping by listening to the podcast, you’ll be inspired to share your story, contribute to and subscribe to Quetzal voices.
Together, we can amplify the voice and wishes of the community where every women and men who experienced abuse know that if they need and want to, they can access support.

Being a Mixed-Raced Post-Doctorate following the Murder of George Floyd

A reflection from a Mixed Raced Black Post-Doctorate who started since July 2019  a discussion with her academic institution about race-based trauma and the experience of BAME academics, and how the murder of George Floyd prompted more actions and reflections on the role of university in supporting BAME staff and students as her first attempt for a productive exchange failed through.

When George Floyd died, the Black Lives Matter (BLM) movement grew, all the news and social media platforms became a constant noise of information related to systemic racism, police brutality and wishes for a better world. I wondered what would be my role and contribution.

I am very fortunate to work for a trauma-informed charity in Leicester that trains and informs their staff and volunteers about how events outside of our control can trigger emotions around unprocessed trauma. So, my first move was to take care of my mental health. Subsequently, I chose not to attend any protests as I was not sure how I would react, and I have a duty of care towards myself first and all those I serve.

I decided instead to reflect upon my Ph.D experience and the process I went through to engage with the Equality and Diversity team at Loughborough University. 

To give more insight, a year almost passed since my Viva at Loughborough University (June 2019). I completed a doctorate contributing to the field of Design for Sustainable Behaviour, Repair and the Circular Economy. A year almost passed too since I engaged with the Equality and Diversity team at my university to share with them my Ph.D experience as a Mixed-Raced Woman (July 2019). My testimony reflected upon how the Ph.D process can trigger unprocessed race-based trauma amongst BAME students and provided some recommendations for the university to make both their staff and students more trauma-informed.

Yet, in June 2020, I still did not get any face-to-face audience with the staff team from the Equality and Diversity Team. 

For me who was born and bred in Europe, and a product of the love from a White French Man and Black Ivorian Woman, I believe that the pain in my veins is invisible to most outsiders, especially my white counterparts. I also recognise that for a long time, I ignored how I felt.  I integrated the abuse related to the colour of my skin I experienced from a young age up to adulthood as normal, and had developed some maladaptive coping mechanisms to deal with stress. Thanks to the Ph.D experience where the worst in me was triggered, I was able to reflect upon my lived experience. I also learnt healthier coping mechanisms to deal with difficult situations. Thanks to my new work place, I have a deeper insight around trauma, and the care they provide for their staff makes me an even more efficient researcher. 

When I saw on Twitter, a statement from Loughborough University about the death of George Floyd and an invitation to contact the ACS Welfare and Education officer. I contacted her and shared with her my concerns about the Equality and Diversity Team and my experience.

Although we had some ongoing communication with the Equality and Diversity team, we haven't met and I want to believe that it is because of other priorities as opposed to being ignored. I was also surprised to learn through the email exchange we had that there were no clear process on how to deal with testimonies from BAME students. It surprised me. The reason why it surprised me is in part because Loughborough University trained me as a researcher and so I expected the Equality and Diversity team to have a methodology to meet one of their main aim which is to improve BAMER staff and student experience at the University. Subsequently, I expected them to collect those experiences, analyse them and provide recommendations to improve their experience, even to develop some case studies and use them to create some discussion with existing staff.

How do you want to tackle systemic racism or to support students and staff's mental heath, if there is no integrated strategy amongst universities to provide a platform to stop hiding both current and non-recent racial abuse, and to educate their members about decolonisation processes?

When I came to academia, my concern was about how to get prosumers to care for their electrical items. My motivation came from my connections to my ancestors and their children who lived through colonisation and decolonisation, and who are still as of now using their energy and resources to support our comfort and life design aspirations. I also wanted to advance my academic career, and inspire my afro-pean community to follow suite, especially women. I did not have any insights on the black academic experience. I just knew that we were not many. I was always the only mixed race in my class so this did not make much difference to my perception. Though, if I knew how much pain black academics went through and how they dealt with difficult situations, I wonder how different my Ph.D experience would have been, equipped with the knowledge that my reactions may be a call for help. I believe it is where the responsibility of the university lay in their duty of care towards students and staff with a BAMER background who may be dealing with with relentless stress and anxiety related to some unprocessed emotions.

I sent my original testimony with the added two pages reflection on the process of engaging with the Equality and Diversity team to academic colleagues, friends and family and to all those who contacted me out of interest, and received various feedback. I am in the process of reflecting upon what I received. The irony is that I think it is the job of the Equality and Diversity team to do, and their paid staff. I leave it to you to reflect upon that within your position of privilege and ask yourself, especially if you are working and paid by the university to enhance student experience through teaching and Ph.D supervision as such what would be your role and contribution to advance this discussion.




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